Work In Progress - Root Access _V1.6

 

Made some progress on Root Access last night. I introduced the first server blocks into the background structure and started cleaning up the veinwork. Some lines got too heavy, so I’ve been slowly correcting the flow. It’s the usual back and forth: adding, subtracting, nudging shapes until something inside says, yes, that’s it.

I work entirely on my cell phone using a dollar store stylus. It’s not ideal, but it gives me full control anywhere, anytime. What I appreciate about digital is that I can push things as far as I want. Erase, layer, revise. There’s no worry about damaging the work surface like with physical media. That freedom lets me obsess over the lines without fear of permanent damage.

Lately, though, the harder part hasn’t been the art. It’s been everything else. I’ve been wrestling with loneliness and the messiness of human connection. Missing close friends. Watching people move forward while I feel stuck in place. There’s a lot of questioning. What I need, what I deserve, what I’m building toward. And it bleeds into the work, or sometimes pushes me away from it entirely.

Still, the act of creating does something nothing else really can. When I fall into the flow state, the constant rumination cuts out. The dark thoughts go quiet. I’m not really here, not really elsewhere either. Just somewhere in between, where I can breathe. That pursuit, more than anything, is what keeps me doing this.